I just wanted you to see.

I wanted you to see my heart,
the one you watched me take apart.
I wanted you to know my fear,
and understand why I stood there.
I wanted you to hold me close,
and fight away unholy ghosts.
I wanted you to be forever,
to be for me the strongest tether.
I wanted nothing more or less,
to stay with you just like this.

Now I understand the wind,
and how it causes things to bend.
It does not know from where it comes,
and sets its course beyond the sun.
I am permanently changed,
undeniably rearranged.
There's no one else that I can be.

I just wanted you to see.

Christina Sawyer (c) 2012.